Notice how I got angry over this so fast? Why was that?
My dad told me he didn't mean for my ego to be hurt. I don't have an ego. How dare you! Well, I do have an ego. Let me say that again, I do have an ego. My esteem was hurt by the statement that I was trying to act smart instead of actually being smart. That is the one thing that I have struggled with in my life. A description of my that is common is that I'm comedic and humorous. For some reason I took that as, "You are funny but comedy doesn't equal intelligence." To make up for that I would not only get good grades in school, but I would show my dad my report cards, Dean's List letters, and ask him what he thought. I was waiting for that pat on the head or a gold sticker and it never came. After school got out this semester they sent out the Dean's List letters again and I showed my dad. I was trying to get him to notice and it didn't come. That's when the uppity attitude appeared. I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW IT WAS HAPPENING! Looking back though, whenever we watched a movie, after I read a book, thought of a random fact I was so eager to share that fact with anyone. I would do it at random times. I wanted a big light up poster saying HEY LOOK I'M SMART! TAKE NOTICE!
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To be humble is to be humiliated. After my french toast humiliation, I finally saw what I was doing. The realization had taken place that my ego was in charge. I wasn't acting smart because I was smart, the only action taking place was acting. Acting so others would take notice and I would be liked.
First of all, I should not need others opinions to tell me who I am. If that occurs, a person will be miserable and that's what was happening to me. Rely off of your own greatness but always, always, ALWAYS realize that there is some room for improvement.
Be positive in your own abilities and strengths. You. Are. Unique. You are special. Don't rely off of what other people tell you though. For every compliment you earn there is criticism. Take consideration of both. Is there room for improvement? The answer will always be yes if you are humble. Did I do my best for the time being? That answer is should also always be yes, so be proud.
Live the life that you want. Don't listen to others as they can put you up and take you down just as fast. You should go out and make others feel better or improve their lives though. Do it because you care about the human race and not because you want to "feel good about yourself." If you touch someone's life in a kind way because you want to help, because you want others to be improved, because you want to change the world for the better that is great. Don't go out and volunteer and think that good karma will be bound to you. That is no way to live. You will be living your whole life thinking that karma or the universe or other people owe you something when they don't. No one person should own another. Share love for the sake of sharing love. If great things follow, then they follow. As a smart person told me today, "I love you but I also like you and those are different. You can love others but not want to be friends with them. Love because that is the greatest act you can do." Robert Turek.
End On A Happy Note:
This man talks about how he was a doctor for Mother Theresa and how another doctor's ego. Thought it was appropriate for today's post.
Also here is a Lip Sync battle with Emma Stone and Jimmy Fallon.
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